PLAY TIME!!!

My Mom always said that I was never happy unless I had my hand in more than one bucket at a time. That comes back to me from time to time, like now. I love doing a lot of things- it makes me feel like what I am doing matters. So right now I am happily in the middle of a few projects to take shape after this semester. I finish my finals on the 9^th and currently I am giddily planning to support Tease and the new Kinkyspot!   

I am so happy to give back to Tease - they are constant givers to the community! My first class with them is on May 12^th- it is flogging at 15$ per couple! All proceeds go to support Tease and the Kinkyspot! I am SOOOO excited!   Contact me at bigdykebear@yahoo.com  to RSVP for the flogging class!  Space is limited and we are almost full! 

I am also in the planning steps with Jackixo (who is an amazing rope artist!)  To host a peer rope group workshop for free (bring a dish) people bring rope and a partner and they start playing and learning from each other. I have never done this type of thing before so I am excited as to how it will go. We are looking at doing this June 15th. 

AND AND AND!  I am in the works with NoirLoba and IMsL2004 to do  a FREE water sports hands on  and demo  workshop  on  June 7^th!  It will teach women how to control their spray, and go over everything you need to know to make water sports fun and HOTHOTHOT! As well as answer questions and see and understand water sports in action. (I have never done this before and I am BUSTING!)  The only requirement for this is that you drink lots of water!!!  LOL!!   Interested in this event?  Contact me here with RSVP or questions: bigdykebear@yahoo.com. 

 

 

 

AND AND AND !  The Albuquerque Masters Group is meeting sometime in May!  I am waiting to confirm the date!  Just Masters this time! Be prepared to learn from each other. Laugh, be honest, candid, and open, we will be doing questions in the hat and taking it from there!!!   Interested in this event?  Contact me here with RSVP or questions: bigdykebear@yahoo.com. 

 

 

 

 

 I am so excited to be done with this semester that I am running out the gate screaming

YEA!! PLAYTIME!!

 

The thing is- that I have two more semesters to go. So I am not done yet- but I am SO READY TO PLAY!! AND LEARN!!!!

 

 

ARE YOU???????

 

Flogging with BearDyke “ thud like you mean it”

Date & Time: in 20 days Monday, May 12, 2014 · 7:00 PM – 9:30 PM
Location:
Kinky Spot Clubhouse (back room of Unseen Gallery)


3107 Eubank, #31 @ map
Cost: $15 per couple


Dress code: Don't freak the neighbors.


Description:
It's a hands on class, so bring a partner. Contact BearDyke or Ms_Ruffdomme to reserve your space. If you have floggers, bring at leat one, if you don't have a flogger, you can buy one of Tease's there! (or borrow one from some generous kinky person)

Finding Your Inner Dominant Class! Tormorrow Night:)

Finding Your Inner Dominant Class!

Hello All- tomorrow I am teaching a finding your inner Dominant class!
Self Serve from 7:30-9PM tomorrow night!
Information an sign up here:
http://selfservetoys.com/events/finding-inner-domin……

I am Hungry....

I am hungry. I am hungry for sustenance as old as time and as new as you and me. I am hungry, ravenous for your body. I am salivating over your curves, your arms, your strong pulsating self.

 I close my eyes to rest and I am wide awake in seconds as my body responds to the last time that we were together. 

Memory after memory forcing my legs to  spread, my breath  to  catch, then my pussy  gets hard and wet and my mouth starts  to  moan as I say 

“yes yes yes”  out loud to  the memory of you.

I am hungry to ravish your body, to take you apart from the inside out, to make you speak only half tones with words lost on your lips----

 as I suck and stroke and pound you until you cum hard, long, and my thighs quiver at the power of your release. 

To cause you pain, then release, to  force you to  cum again  at my will, to  force you to  feel  my power as I make you be grateful at my hands, my mouth, my toys----    

as I  force you to  cum  when you don’t want to, you don’t think you can, but you do. And your long loud cum grunt fills my ears and makes me wet all over again.

 I am hungry to fuck you and be fucked to the point of exhaustion, to the point of sweaty sheets that will not dry, to the point of barely conscious.

I am hungry.

My cracked out moment..... Possible trigger warning.

So  this week  I was so  exhausted, but we had errands to  run  in  town. At the end of the errands my slave says lets go  out to dinner so  when we get home you can just crash.

 Wonderful  in  theory-   so  we go  to  Luigis -  one of my favorite places.

 And at the end of the dinner I was so  delirious that when I spilled ice cream on my shirt  I started rubbing myself and saying  "Its all  over me!!! Its all over me!!!"

Luckily the waitress knew us pretty well-  because I looked like a cracked out mess and because I had rubbed  the ice cream into my shirt  at that point-  so there was nothing to see.

So I was feeling myself up, pointing at my tits and saying -  "its all over me!!  LOOK!! CAN'T you seee it???"



Yep-

one of my better moments.


On the good news front- school is going well. I have another hard push  for the next three weeks, but then  I can  rest for  a week before I start summer classes.

I am struggling with  something though--  I don't feel  good.

I cant remember the last time that I really felt good.

I feel  so  sluggish  and tired and beaten up  all the time.

 I am  trying to keep  my body image intact as I get slower and slower from  not having time to  do  what I normally do. And from  just the mental  and physical  exhaustion of having to  get so  much done.

I feel  bulky, and awkward, undesirable, repulsive, and  physically weak.

That is hard sometimes.

I know --I know-  One thing for another-  But I cant wait for this semester to  be over so  that I will have the time to do  the things that I deeply miss that helped me feel  strong and powerful again.


 I know that this is worth  it-  I just have to  keep  reminding myself that there is an  end here. And a well  earned hike when  that happens.


And that I am  still of worth  even if it doesn't.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2gy1Evb1Kg