I am so sick right now, and I have been for more than two weeks. It's this DAMN head cold that has me like some sort of gremlin and is wrestling my head and throat and body to the ground with its mucousy grasp!!!!
My poor slave is just as bad off as I am. So we are taking turns taking care of each other, depending on who has more strength at that moment.
I am pissed because so much life happens when I am stuck in that damn bed. I missed two amazing events' that I had been looking forward to for weeks!! Seriously, my boxer's were wet with anticipation and everything! I missed out on having coffee with a great friend and then hopping across town to playpool with an amazing and fascinating woman. I also missed going to the aquarium and being able to hold my love and watch the Dork fish. I love going to the aquarium just for this one fish!!!! She loves it to!!!!!! Every time we see it we say "I'm a dork fish!" ( Look it makes sense to us ok?!?!?!)
If this illness continues, I will be missing out on being able to take pictures, going to a play party, having coffee with my leather brother, and two more dinners with friends.
What the FUCK?
I AM SO PISSED!
However, I am just as in awe of my slave as I am pissed at being sick. She has been absolutely amazing even though she is fighting body aches, nausea, fatigue, and weakness. She has gotten up at 2 am to make me soup more then once. She has driven me into town at 6 am for more medicine, all the while driving down the mountain on iced and snowy roads. She has watched over my cough. She has brought me hot tea and soup (made special just the way I like it!) around the clock.
She has never once complained, never once said, "no. Never once has she said that she couldn't take care of me. She has me made me feel so loved and so safe.
I am in awe and amazed and very much feeling blessed that she is in my life. Not only does she serve, but she loves me when she does it.
I have no words for what she has done for me over the past few days, I only have utter gratefulness and love.
(Picture by Fox_Fotography!!!!) Leather Bear Tails is about the leather journey of my slave and I. It deals with all parts of the leather and BDSM experience from safety to predators, to skills, and all of the lovely mistakes that she and I make along the way!! Also!! I have written a book called "M/s for the Rest of Us" it can be found for purchase here: http://www.lulu.com/shop/k-e-enzweiler/ms-for-the-rest-of-us/paperback/product-22151343.html
True appreciation is a very loving and powerful thing. It completely sucks being sick but it makes it less so having someone you love there by your side.
ReplyDeleteI'm late getting here, but I hope you're feeling better by Sunday. Love to you both. We miss you.
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