A busy life assumes one full of purpose

(Just an  update-  Pokey is recovering BEAUTIFULLY!   His surgery was without complications and he is trotting around like a 20 year old and flirting and showing off!!! Thank everyone for your well  wishes.)  



I am  seriously behind on my BDSM  homework. Yesterday  I taught a "Finding Your Inner Dominant" class. Thanks  to  eve pulling out my notes early in the week (I truly thought that the class was going to  be cancelled)  I would have stood there and picked my nose for an  hour and a half.  
The class was really amazing and reinvigorating. It was the type of class that I thrive in,  insightful;,  intellectuals who  asked  thoughtful provocative questions.

It was just what I needed!  
 

This Monday coming up  I am  doing AEL.  I am  giving a  presentation on  "Protocol". I write it tomorrow. Any Ideas would be very helpful!

We are prepping for APRIL 30th- I am SO  EXCITED!
The event here with  classes and a play party.  

We are prepping for MAY 7th- I am SO EXCITED!
The event at Sidewinders for Casa Q. eve will be vending and dancing!  

We are prepping for being an AEL  host house.

  I am  teaching a sensory class for Self Serve-  which  I haven't written  an agenda for.





And with  all  of this happening- I am  feeling-  in  a way-  like I will never be enough.


Does that happen to  you? 

Like what you give, like who  you are, will  always come up  short? 

 There is this great quote: "A busy life assumes one full  of purpose".

But what does it mean  when  your life is busy and you still  feel-  not purposeless-  that's not the word.

But-  like if you stop  for one minute, you loose your place in  the world. 

I know that this will pass, as the events come and I see people learning and laughing.  It will  change.  

But right now. It is hard to  see past this place.