Not today

Hello All.

Today is a rough day. 

I am  using all that I can  to  remind myself that in the big global  arch  of life, that in  the big scheme of things,  it really can’t be that bad.

I live in a first world country. 

We are not at war.

I am married to the love of my lifetimes.

I am surrounded by powerful, beautiful women, who challenge me and love me when I am frail.

Right now we have heat, food, water, and hay.

This time will pass.

It will take with it my sorrow, illness, and lack of hope. 

We all go through this from time to time.  The feeling of loss is global.

We all know it.  We all feel it depths. 

I am a Master identified dyke.  And I feel lost and without hope. 

Its ok to be lost. It is ok  to be without hope.

If you are a Master type,  or a D type-  know this-  its ok to  not be ok all  the time.

I miss my boy today.