I have written a book called "M/s for the Rest of Us" it is available for purchase here: http://www.lulu.com/shop/k-e-enzweiler/ms-for-the-rest-of-us/paperback/product-22151343.html

Or on Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Rest-Us-K-E-Enzweiler/dp/1329062213/ref=sr_1_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1432825657&sr=1-2&keywords=m%2Fs+for+the+rest+of+us

I am the founder of the Albuquerque Masters Group. We meet once every other month. The group is open to all who wish to explore their Mastery, slavery, or Dominance and submission. Please contact me here or at my email : Bigdykebear@yahoo.com for more information!
The meetings are free to all who wish to attend!

If you are interested in power munches, skills workshops or play parties in the Albuquerque area please contact the 20 year organization of AEL at:


If you are interested in active online community please find:


Group names for the Albuquerque Community Include:

Land Of Enchantment Fetlifers

Albuquerque Kinksters

KinkySpot Clubhouse

Albuquerque Master/slave forum

New Mexico Leather League: Leather/Kink/Fetish and More

Friday, May 13, 2016


I am  going through  some changes.

I am  thinking hard about what I am  doing,  what I am  becoming, what I want, and what I need.
I love my part in  the community.  It makes me feel  like I matter. This  of course being a double edged sword. To  keep  feeling like I matter,  I have to  keep  being relevant in  some fashion.

I love being the educational  person  for the wet munch,  hosting for AEL  and doing fundraisers for "our" community.  Publishing my book  on  M/s was a huge milestone. Running the AMG was very fulfilling as I got to  hear other peoples perspectives on M /s.

But I am  feeling like-   I am  missing something.

I guess it is the times when we are most secure that we are able to  feel  the most  unfulfilled.  

The times without crisis that allow us to  have  introspection  and insight. 

The times when  we are sure of who  we are in  our lives and our relationships that allow us the freedom  of asking ourselves "who am I?" and  "who do I want to be?"

So I think I am there now.  

What is my next step?

And  how can  I stop running myself into  the ground because the need to  matter is an  overriding visceral  need---- that more then  borders on  the unhealthy side?

I am  blessed though- to  be  in a place where I am  safe and secure enough  to  ask  myself these things, and to  be able to  know that they may not be answers. 

And that needs to  be OK  to.  



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