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Group names for the Albuquerque Community Include:
Land Of Enchantment Fetlifers
Albuquerque Master/slave forum
New Mexico Leather League: Leather/Kink/Fetish and More
Friday, February 28, 2014
The 8$ car wash.
This week I had sometime before the AEL meeting, and so I drove around a bit until I found a car wash. It was 8$.
So why would an eight dollar car wash be so significant? It was significant because for the first time in four years I had the money, the time, the effort, and energy to spend on it. It was weird.
I sat in the car wash with the radio playing and it occurred to me. This wasn’t our last eight dollars for the week. We didn’t have to hold onto those eight dollars like gold-- to use on gas or hay. Then having to stretch out those last eight dollars worth of gas to work for the whole week, or one bale of hay to last for four days- which would mean one feeding a day (not two ) and of much less then the horses would need. Meanwhile sweating it out in the hopes that nothing else happened, like a blown tire, or one of the horses getting sick, or one if us getting sick and needing cough medicine that would mean no gas or no hay, and us wishing for our eight dollars back.
I wasn’t so mentally and emotionally exhausted from stress- what that meant was that I actually had the presence of mind to think to myself- hey the van is nasty- I should surprise my slave and do something. I went to three places to find the kind of working car wash that I wanted. I wasn’t driving fast, or worried that I should be conserving gas money or time. I wasn’t so exhausted at that the thought of having to do one more thing - that I felt pushed to my edge.
It was the mundane. The ordinary. It was what normal people do in normal lives when their cars are dirty. It felt good. Foreign.
And afterwards I went to AEL with my new looking van- which is blue by the way- and before I went into the restaurant I looked the van over, all sparkly and clean. And I was relaxed, even giddy. This is what a normal life feels like.
The funny part was that after AEL when I was leaving, I walked over to one of the dirty vans in the parking lot- because I thought it was mine!
It was then that I realized that after all of this time and effort- that things really are getting better, slowly, as we financially, emotionally and physically recover from the last few years of our life. All of our work to change our situation was paying off, and I was rewarded with an 8$ car wash.
How lucky am I?