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I am the founder of the Albuquerque Masters Group. We meet once every other month. The group is open to all who wish to explore their Mastery, slavery, or Dominance and submission. Please contact me here or at my email : Bigdykebear@yahoo.com for more information! The meetings are free to all who wish to attend!
If you are interested in power munches, skills workshops or play parties in the Albuquerque area please contact the 20 year organization of AEL at:
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Group names for the Albuquerque Community Include:
Land Of Enchantment Fetlifers
Albuquerque Master/slave forum
New Mexico Leather League: Leather/Kink/Fetish and More
Friday, July 25, 2014
TRIGGER WARNING: Abuse History
My name is Keli, I am a Master Identified lesbian, and I have a mental illness.
I have had for years. I am medicated, I am compliant in my medication, but some days I fight and I win, and some days I fight and it wins.
I say this now because this week I was told that what I am feeling is all in my head. This comment, said by someone who is aware of my mental illness has cut me to my core. Taken the breath clear out of me, and reminded me that I am a deeply damaged person.
When I was a kid I used to cover my head when I was beaten- arch my back to take the brunt of the blows, and afterwards I remember I would rock myself.
I have done that all week- covered my head, arched my back, and rocked.
It is the only way that I can find peace and comfort from these words that have taken their toll on me.
I am lucky though. By chance this week I had finished my school semester early and taken a week off of work to celebrate - all before it happened- so at least I could concentrate on my healing and not have to worry about those things.
I know that this in time will pass- that in time I will be far away from this.
But for now I cover my head, arch my back and rock.