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Friday, May 3, 2013

Horses, birthday, pain, love......


It has been quite a week. Rainey isn't any better and she  isn't any worse, and despite my 22 years of medical experience I am just too close to this to assess it. Vet comes out on Monday. At this point we are all  so emotionally and physically exhausted and drained, and that includes Rainey. 

She reached her limit and kicked me this week. Honestly she just used her leg to push me away from her, her ass is sore from the shots and the muscles working overtime to  metabolize the medication, and her leg hurts, so she clenched her ass muscle and  the needle bent on impact-  I ended up having to poke her three times. On the third time she finally lost her patience because it hurt like hell-  I would have to.

 I am bruised, but I was explaining to my very afraid slave, that considering the damage she could have done, this was nothing. Had she wanted to she could have easily  sent me flying, and kept kicking. But she didn't and right after she kicked me, I went right back to her ass and injected her and she did fine. 

We are all tired here. And my slave has been exceptional and giving, and kind and calm. Literally as we have been outside giving Rainey her shots and tending to her leg, my slave would  give a cookie to the horses, and then an apple slice to me. She worked so hard at keeping everyone calm and focused- no wonder she is exhausted from the inside out.
 

On the flip side, I can say that for my birthday week I have been loved and cared for, and had a day of respite that finally made me smile, and lift my heart.
I feel much loved, very cared for, and very very special.
I feel that even though all of this is going on, that ultimately I feel safe.  And that can be a rare thing in my world.



So here is my thought today-  if you are struggling with something, or something is hurting your heart, or twisting your mind, take those people that you love and puppy pile on the couch and tell each other how much you love each other. How much  each other means, and how much they are special to you.  It will rejuvenate your heart, and give you strength, and remind you that love can see you through anything.


I love my Rainey, and so does my slave,  and no matter the outcome on Monday. We will see this through as a family, together.


 

2 comments:

  1. This was perfect for me to read today:

    "So here is my thought today- if you are struggling with something, or something is hurting your heart, or twisting your mind, take those people that you love and puppy pile on the couch and tell each other how much you love each other. How much each other means, and how much they are special to you. It will rejuvenate your heart, and give you strength, and remind you that love can see you through anything."

    I can't pile everyone on the couch, but I will do what I can. Thank you for reminding me to do that.

    All three of you are very much in our thoughts. Many, many hugs to you all.

    xoxo

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  2. Thank you so much Pigtails! Have a wonderful day:)

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